Now, I had been preparing for this from the get go. I admit I'm a lot to handle, and I'm not talking about in my pants, that is all nut (wink). I am, also, not an experienced dater and I was swimming in fresh new waters with this one, so I was prepared. At the same time, I lived it so fully because it was all so new to me and being looked and and touched by someone that was really into me was a sensation foreign to this queen.
So, when he told me that we were through I was able to accept his words with grace and step forward feeling fine.
Of course, my heart was sad. Yes, I cried. But I was,also, so thankful to have had the time that we had together. Funny thing, I had just written a letter to a friend and had talked about him...a lot; and, as I was peeing I thought that if we made it to August it would be the longest I'd ever dated anyone, 6 months. The phone rang.
I know right! My mantra upon hanging up was, "keep your heart open and continue stepping out and up and full of life." He unlocked a part of myself that hadn't been free since I was a child, I wasn't about to allow myself to shut it down or be heartsick about it. I was going to continue this glorious new aspect to my being and take it even further as I soar on!!
My friend, Nicholas, came down for the week (it had been planned long before the breakup, he didn't come to comfort me;)) for our Big Gay Skate Night at the Astoria Armory, our Astoria Pride, and to be in the commercial we were doing for Painted Lady Gin for North Coast Distilling. Yes, Daylight Cums is the spokes queen for the fabulous gin!!! It really is my favorite!!
For myself, roller skating is my soul dance! I feel myself in the sky as I glide across the surface of the world on my skates! This event was special too because I am hoping to have them once a month!! So, I had to be beautiful for the party!! I spent the day cooking food for the potluck and laying in the sun and dancing to happy beats!
Then, I put my face on and Nicholas and I headed out to art walk downtown.
I had THE time of my life!!!! Getting to stroll downtown and visit with my friends and family and take in art, hugs and laughter; my heart was bursting. I felt so alive to be out in the warmth of the sun and take in all the love being given to me. It really was just the best!
Could have been my favorite moment, but then I got to the Armory and saw my niece!! She said, " I have never gotten to see you like this; and I love it a lot!" And then she hugged me and gazed at me with so much love I thought I might burst.
And the Shanghai Roller Dolls stopping to cheer me on!!! Full I tell you.
The party was such a great hit! They are going to let us do it once a month!!!! Yay yay yay! I got to skate with my girl, Ronda, who I used to drive up to Portland with to go dancing back when we were younger. We just circled the room, holding hands, talking, laughing. Seeing so many friends taking to the floor, some for their first time, others for the first time in years; the joy was so abundant. We were skating and having fun and letting our spirits lift and giggle. Then, my niece takes my hand and we skate and talk and laugh. I am telling you, I was vibrating with love!
Nicholas in his wig and hot hot hot shorts!!! The best pride ever!!
Next morning, Sunday Market! Yes, go grab some goods for the episode filming on Wednesday. Wandered through, visiting with friends, hugging, laughing, hanging with family. So perfect!
I am so lucky.
The episode was the conclusion to my pride celebration. I have missed doing these episodes so much. It has been a year and a half. Finally, I'm back in the studio/my kitchen. I spent the morning prepping all the yummy food and getting the deck set up for the party. I worked on my tan as I was roasting the veggies. Really the best tanning tool, 15 minute flips.
I got all dolled up. I wore the same outfit from the skate night because it made me feel so good. Camera crew arrived and we got to it.
Teri Yukki and Ginger Vitus showed up. Nicholas had to leave early. Got all the filming done, I'll spare you the description since you will be able to see it shortly!!
And my brother showed up on his Harley so I could get a shot on the back holding a cross bow, a girl has her dreams.
And we sat and ate and drank Painted Lady gin and tonics and I just knew that this is the most magical place. I am so blessed to get to be surrounded by such compassion and beauty and laughter and life. I love my abundant family and all the gifts and lessons we bring to life in one another!
Yours Always,
Daylight
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